NUSA struggle for marks

There is only 2 days left of the Winter 2010 semester and I continue to get an overflow of marks back. Scientific Method and Analysis is kicking butt however the labs are not easy. My 90's on the midterms are great but follow them up with a 62 on my first lab it leaves me in a continual struggle to get my average over 70 so I can apply to be on the executive for NUSA next year. In my intro to Criminal justice I got an 80 on the most recent test meaning I need a 90 on the interview assignment that I will get back after lunch. Following that is my minorities class which I am awaiting my mark on my 12-15 page term paper, this class did not have any test just quizzes, our presentation, and this term paper. I am carrying roughly an 80 in this class as well but if I don't get at least 80 on this term paper I can watch my NUSA dreams run away screaming. I just have to continually tell myself that I have done all I can do and that there is always next year.

Next year I am planning on taking Philosophy of Sex and Love to forward my Philosophy minor, however the number of people allowed in this class is sadly restricted...about 30 people I think. And with all the excitement at 12am on May 25th I am having difficulty seeing me pressing the button before all the other philosophy and religion majors. If I do fail to get into this course, I will be taking a sociology course call sexual behaviour 1 and 2. This course would lead me to a sociology minor. At least I have left my path open. I know it sounds like I am crazy for sex, I am more just interested in the thought processes about it. Plus, I want to be a marriage counsellor and the sex part of a relationship is apparently a big deal. Who Knew! I am quite excited for next year, but first I get to spend 4 months at home in a crowded house with the people I love. I am so lucky.

Twice.....Random Guys Talking To Me

So last week, I was walking down the A100 wing and a guy was walking in the other direction and decided that he wanted to talk to me. Well, that was interesting, I am not sure if Nipissing guys have become more welcoming, or are desperate but I had another guy today do a similar thing. Again I was walking into the A100's and a guy caught up to me and said "you look miserable" (nice pick up line), and continued to talk about me...even about his cut up apples. Mind you they were both reasonably cute, and I am flattered, but apparently this ring on my finger means nothing to men.
Oddly enough, that is one thing I love about Nipissing. The small community, where some people feel comfortable enough to talk to whoever they see in the halls. I guess that is how you widen your network. Which I personally believe that every person you know and have smiled at become your network.
All you can really do is go through life as happy as possible so that maybe you can be one of the people who walk down the hall and make someones horrible day seem a little brighter...even if it is by saying "you look miserable".

Nip Life

I am finding myself walking down the hall and the grounds feeling more confident in myself.
And I have to ask myself why? The answer: keeping busy. When I was in high school I ran around like a crazy person, participating/volunteering in every event that had to do with the three clubs I was with. I rarely had time for lunch with my friends or much time after school for anything. Mainly because I worked after school at least 3 nights a week. So so far I have talked about my high school life. This year which is my second year at Nip, I have gotten myself back involved. I came in ninth in the amount of hours volunteered with NUSA (Nipissing University Student Ambassadors), I have been helping with Aboriginal Services as my fiancee has a job with them, and I ran Campus Alpha in January. My grades have significantly increased, and though I am unemployed as of right now I am very confident in my skills. I am so excited for my future. Nipissing has treated me well through half way through my degree.
I will see what the future holds........

If I only had something to say

Well, honestly I have been wanting to write another post, however apparently my life is so boring that I have nothing to say. So maybe I will just blab on about my fail of a life. Umm, so I would recommend Love Dare to any couple who is struggling at all. It is an awesome perspective on the purpose of a couple and how to manage your partner....with patience, kindness, and love. It is a Christian perspective 40 day challenge for married couples. Though I am not married, I am engaged and have been in this relationship almost 3 years now and this dare has sparked the positives back into the relationship. I just love hearing "I love you" ten times a day and it actually being said because that is how you truly feel and not just a way to cover your true emotions.

Anyway, what else is going on with my life, Cheryl is moving into our apartment at the end of this month which I am very excited for. I just need a place to hang out where I don't feel like I am stepping on anybodies toes....SO EXCITED.

I also am trying to increase my average so that I can hopefully get on NUSA exec. for next year...however it is not going to be easy.

My parents are coming this weekend! My grandpa and aunt live in Powassan so we will be there for the most part playing poker...hopefully I win....I really need money, I have completely drained the bank account. I am so excited to see them because the reading week was just full of me spending time with other people.

Anyway, I played Darts last night and I won 4 games :). Which was AWESOME!

Hopefully something interesting will happen soon.

Priorities

I think life's events makes you focus on the priorities you have for yourself, what the future holds, and how you want to help more people then you could ever imagine helping. I don't know what it takes to be a world leader, but an opportunity that big does not come around too often. Personally, I would take advantage of it. It is the ideal way to move into peoples thoughts and lives, not to mention the access to helping the poor.

I want wealth to all, nobody going without food for a day or more. So much 'money' in the world yet the developed countries seem to obsess over it and control it. I want to show people that the way to produce peace is by acting on the simplest morals. I want the world to see all the lessons the bible teaches that can and should be related to our lives today. I want to reach out and become a role model. I want to keep families from separating and help parents see what divorce will eventually do to their children's lives. I want to show them the importance of a family dinner, a games night, or even simply a conversation with their children that does not involve the raising of a voice or anger held in. Just a conversation about the child's day, their emotions, things that are important to them. I want people to understand the family and God are the most important things in a life. Even if you don't believe in God, their are no better morals/ethics to base your life on.

I wish that people would stop to listen to my idea, not to judge, or just go on because they think it is not possible to see a town, city, country, or world completely at peace. Crime and War will not go away overnight, but with a friendly smile or a warm embrace things can change in a lifetime.

I want to see change, I want to be change, and I want to embrace change.

What are your priorities?

Home

Home is a little piece of sunshine that rarely comes out.

So happy to see the light in your life.

Excited to smile, laugh and cry with the people who know you best.

Experience the desire to encourage you in everything you do.

The support as you transition through life.

The Love that nobody can explain.

A child and parent relationship is the strongest bond of all.

The innate reaction to assist a person even if it costs you your own life.

Home makes me understand the world in my eyes.

Home makes me believe that unconditional love is possible.

Home the knowledge that their are people who care.

Home nothing too small or too big.

Home Perfect in every way!

The Tiger will Come

When you can't explain the gaps of faith, the gap in happiness, the thing you believe you need, there is no words.

Nothing to make you see that you matter to me. Nothing to explain that you are more than you can see. Nothing to make the gap fade, the sun to shine again, and the seed to blossom into a white lily.

The tiger may never come, you can't pause a flood of actions, you move forward and pray that the tiger will come one day.

I can't make you see that you are impeccably a silver shell. A sparkle in the night. The peace in a crowd. You are a single one, the only one of your kind. The beauty as I look at you makes me wonder why.

How can you think that you don't belong, how can you think you will be alone, how can you sit and mourn in jealous anger for the love others have. When your face in that mirror is something nobody thinks their worthy of. Something they walk by and wish they could hold at night.

The beauty of the brown twinkle in your eye. The slight overlap of your smile. The precious spots that line your cheeks make the tigers knees week. The chestnut brown of you hair is perfectly fit for a lioness.

Your beautiful, wonderful, spectacular, incredible, intellectual, and never ever Alone!

I love you S.B.